Well, I followed my new meal plan today. It was really scary, but somehow felt good. I didn't get extremely hungry between lunch and dinner (my new dietitian added a snack in the mid-afternoon), and therefore I wasn't thinking about food all day. I was actually able to go to the library and focus on my school work! That felt good.
But on the other hand, I felt really depressed today. I felt like crying all day but I'm not sure why. It's possible that because I wasn't obsessing about food my mind went to other things, and pretty much everything in my mind is sad. It's also possible that I was using my eating disorder as a drug and now I'm feeling withdrawal. I don't know. But it was a pretty unpleasant place to be today.
Now the challenge is making it through the night without using behaviors to alleviate my depression.