This morning I awoke to a text message from SB telling me that she was sick and therefore couldn't make our outing today. I'm not sure whether or not I buy her excuse, but it doesn't matter-- I was glad she canceled anyway. Firstly, my social anxiety spikes whenever I have plans and often when they fall through I feel relieved. Secondly, I've been really tired all week and I just want to rest. Thirdly, she wanted to see The Adjustment Bureau, which is not my type of movie. So instead of going into the city to see her I went to see The King's Speech, the movie that won Best Picture at the Oscars this year, and I am pleased with the way things turned out. I enjoyed the movie, and I didn't have to travel to go see it. It was a low-key way to spend the day.
But this evening I went into the city to follow through on my plans for dinner with my sister, A. I had been really nervous about it all day because I didn't know where we would eat and therefore I couldn't plan my meal in advance. But we had an excellent time. I considered canceling our plans because I wouldn't be in the city, but I decided to go through with it and I'm glad I did.
Although, now I am really nervous about what the scale will say tomorrow. Sigh.