I've had a hard time in terms of depression and anxiety today. I'm not really feeling up to writing, but basically my mood has been low ever since I woke up and my anxiety is high because of uni distribution requirements. I'm doing my best not to cut myself, but that's what I've been thinking of doing. And I haven't done that since the summer.
Hopefully tomorrow will be better. I'll hopefully get some answers about the requirements and everything will be settled. It's just that when I get anxious I want answers IMMEDIATELY and I want control when I don't have any.
Sigh.
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honey, i feel that way too sometimes--- anxious when I need to know something right away. Boy, oh boy--- and then God gave me two hellions for kids who taught me to just believe.
Things always have a way of working themselves out. And sometimes the bad stuff turns out to be a blessing in disguise. Have you ever read the Tao Te Ching? I think you might enjoy that. :) some great, timeless life lessons in there.
Oh, btw, didn't answer your post yesterday, but when I was your age, I didn't especially enjoy sex either. Late bloomer, I guess. Also, I don't think that you're in love with S and that makes a difference too.
Hang in there sweetie. You're doing great. When you get an urge to cut does it help to try and do something else like knit or practice your clarinet? xo ~ L
I know how you feel. I have been struggling with wanting to cut myself a lot the past week or so. I know it only helps for a minute then guilt eats me up. Anxiety can push us to do things we would not ordinary do. Try very hard to keep safe. You been through so much. It's going to work out. It just is going to take time. Standing there with you. ((((((NOS)))))
((((NOS))))
Sending you hugs,
Tammy
Here with you and praying for the answers that will calm you dear NOS. ((((NOS))))
I know what you mean-I always want answers immediately , too. I am not patient at all. I don't like gray areas. Please don't cut. It's been a long time since you have. Please cope in postitive ways. I know it's tough, but you can make it!
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