I didn't have a terribly bad day today. I had class in the morning, went to the library afterwords to watch a German movie for my other class (The Edukators-- highly recommended), came home, went for a run, worked on my crocheted blanket, and that's about it. A pretty low-key day. I did a few bad things in terms of eating, however. I didn't eat breakfast or lunch, and on my way home from class I stopped by CVS to buy green tea pills. Not good. But I'm going to get rid of them soon, I swear. And my scale. That has to go.
Lesson learned: eating disorders suck.
Anyway, I have a bit of a problem. Next Wednesday is the first night of Rosh Hashana and also the first rehearsal of the wind ensemble. My family is going to dinner at my grandmother's house and I really don't want to go because I don't believe in the holiday and I hate family dinners. I told my mom about the conflict and she said "Well, it sounds like you have a decision to make." I know what decision I want to make-- I want to go to the wind ensemble rehearsal-- but I fear that the guilt will never end if I do so. I think I'm going to bring this up to group tomorrow and see what D and my group-mates have to say.
In the good news department, WC, the boy from the fencing club on Wednesday called me! On Wednesday he told me that he loves to bake, so on the phone he tells me that he's baking me brownies and that he wants to give them to me this weekend. Now I am obligated to bake him a loaf of banana bread (I make really good banana bread), so that's what I'll be doing tomorrow afternoon. (Don't get me wrong, I'm not upset about this obligation. At the club we promised that we'd trade and I'm just upholding my side of the bargain.) We're having lunch together on Sunday to make the exchange. I am looking forward to it very, very much. I really like him!