I didn't have a terribly bad day today. I had class in the morning, went to the library afterwords to watch a German movie for my other class (The Edukators-- highly recommended), came home, went for a run, worked on my crocheted blanket, and that's about it. A pretty low-key day. I did a few bad things in terms of eating, however. I didn't eat breakfast or lunch, and on my way home from class I stopped by CVS to buy green tea pills. Not good. But I'm going to get rid of them soon, I swear. And my scale. That has to go.
Lesson learned: eating disorders suck.
Anyway, I have a bit of a problem. Next Wednesday is the first night of Rosh Hashana and also the first rehearsal of the wind ensemble. My family is going to dinner at my grandmother's house and I really don't want to go because I don't believe in the holiday and I hate family dinners. I told my mom about the conflict and she said "Well, it sounds like you have a decision to make." I know what decision I want to make-- I want to go to the wind ensemble rehearsal-- but I fear that the guilt will never end if I do so. I think I'm going to bring this up to group tomorrow and see what D and my group-mates have to say.
In the good news department, WC, the boy from the fencing club on Wednesday called me! On Wednesday he told me that he loves to bake, so on the phone he tells me that he's baking me brownies and that he wants to give them to me this weekend. Now I am obligated to bake him a loaf of banana bread (I make really good banana bread), so that's what I'll be doing tomorrow afternoon. (Don't get me wrong, I'm not upset about this obligation. At the club we promised that we'd trade and I'm just upholding my side of the bargain.) We're having lunch together on Sunday to make the exchange. I am looking forward to it very, very much. I really like him!
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4 comments:
It sounds like that decision is one of those yucky ones that you really really don't want to make. My mum is the same with things like that and she guilt trips me over stuff like that for weeks. She lives so far away from us and that is good but when she wants us to go up there, we have an excuse because we don't drive and she is very demanding, sometimes offering us up. Normally we say no.
Good luck with the boy, I hope it all goes well and I LOVE banana bread. It's my favourite.
*hugs*
Sarah
Good Morning NOS,
Sorry to hear about the "guilt" trips from your Mom. I don't think people understand how destructive motivation by guilt can be on a relationship. :(
So happy to hear about you meeting the "boy". He must be pretty great if you are baking for him.
Blessings,
Tammy
Your meeting with this guy sounds very promising. Do what you need to do about the family dinner. You must first take care of yourself. I hope you have a great weekend. ((((NOS))))
I can relate too much to the guilt trips NOS. Here listening and understanding..... ((((NOS))))
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