I spent most of today fuming about Shrinkiepoo's threats against me (see this post). On the 50 minute commute to my philosophy class this morning it was all I could think about. I really do hate that man. And I have decided that I'm not going to stand for his shit anymore.
I had a session with D today-- I called him yesterday, upset about my session with Shrinkiepoo, and asked for an extra meeting before our usual Friday session. And let me say, I really like D. He is on my side. He is not controlling. He listens to me. He's my advocate. I told him about Shrinkiepoo's ECT threat and D said that he didn't agree with it. He said that in his opinion ECT would only come on the table if I was going to die; if it were ECT or NOS's death he would choose ECT. Understandable. I can agree to that. But Shrinkiepoo made it seem like if my mood slips even a little he will force me to undergo ECT again, and that I just won't do. (ECT was traumatic enough the first time around and I was forced into doing it then as well.) So D said he'd call Shrinkiepoo tomorrow to discuss this and to tell him that threatening a girl with an eating disorder/control issues will not turn out well.
But I think that as soon as I get back to uni I am going to start looking for a new psychiatrist. I no longer feel comfortable telling Shrinkiepoo how I'm feeling, and he does not respect me or my autonomy in the least. I have boundaries and Shrinkiepoo has overstepped them.
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I'm glad you have at least someone on your treatment team, D, who actually listens to you. I think finding a new psychoatrist is a good idea, from what you've said I don't like the sound of your current one at all.
Take care,
Cassie x
I certainly would not want to go through ECT. I remember my brother back in the 70's when he was suffering from Vietnam flashbacks and was admitted that they did that to him.
Dear one here listening.... ((((NOS))))
NOS,
I am so happy to hear you have an advocate in D. that you feel listened, too.
It is so important to have someone support you with guidance and not control.
Thanks for all your supportive comments. I am feeling much better and like my old self again. :)
Blessings,
Tammy
I am glad you have your advocate in D. It's a good thing to have someone you can trust. I had ECT under much duress. Never again unless I'm dying. I think you have some good plans. I want you to know how much I care about you and want the best for you. You are a strong person and don't let anyone tell you different! (((((NOS)))))
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